Tuesday, December 23, 2014
7 weeks
Tuesday, December 9, 2014
5 weeks 5 days
I'm still waking up pleasantly suprised each morning when I remember that i'm pregnant. If all goes well I think i'll probably still be finding it a novelty and a surprise come August next year. My symptoms so far have been
-waking during the night (the first thing that made me wonder if it worked because the only other time I've woken during the night more than 1 night in a row was last cycle)
-cramps- every day during 2 week wait- to the point I felt sick and stayed in bed a day 8 days past transfer, I think that was implantation. Now about once or twice a day or so I have mild cramps for a minute or so
-stretching feelings and tiny shooting mild pains in different areas of my uterus
-sore boobs
-digestive issues. Prunes are my staple desert at the moment
-tiredness- after lunch the kids are getting used to the majority of my time being spent on the couch. Luckily they love being read to and will paint with block water colours for as many colouring pages as ill let them. I have a big thick Christmas colouring book which is getting quite the work out this year, i'm sure the parents are getting sick of receiving mass quantities of pictures each day!
I got my second hcg back and it was perfect. I went from 451 to 1202 in 54 hours so it more than doubled with plenty to spare :)
For a few days after getting the hcg tests I was feeling really reassured and positive that all was going well but it didn't take long before I started having doubts and worrying that we would get to the ultrasound and have no heartbeat or I would start bleeding and loose the baby. It's a scary time being so early because unfortunately having waited almost 6 years years for this pregnancy still doesn't take away the risk of miscarriage. For my age group statistics say 1 in 7 pregnancies are lost before seeing a heart beat, thankfully the likelihood drops heaps after that. 12 more days until our ultrasound. Thankfully the days are going quickly, but not quickly enough. I'm really worried but reminding myself that the odds are better than they ever have been before. 1 in 7 means that 6 babies survive. Fingers crossed we're one of the lucky ones this time. I started worrying that my pregnancy symptoms were going away. When I stopped and took notice it was all still there except for waking at night. I even stopped with the prunes for a few days, just to check. Um yes, definitely still necessary. I was uncomfortable for a day because of it but it was worth it for the reassurance.
I've been keeping buisy with work, spending lots of time on an ivf forum that I joined at the start of the year and i've also been knitting a cozy little sleep sack. I've been adding to my 'one day baby' board on pinterest. Each time I get excited that i'll soon hopefully be changing that label to 'August baby'
I'm also looking forward to Christmas. Last night I went to mum and dads and made my usual rosemary wreath for the front door. Mum gave me all sorts of cute things to put on it when usually it's quite plain, I have to say it's my favourite! I'm so glad we have our ultrasound soon (on the 22nd dec), if we get a little heart beat it will be the only Christmas present we need. Its exciting thinking about Christmas with our very own little baby next year
-waking during the night (the first thing that made me wonder if it worked because the only other time I've woken during the night more than 1 night in a row was last cycle)
-cramps- every day during 2 week wait- to the point I felt sick and stayed in bed a day 8 days past transfer, I think that was implantation. Now about once or twice a day or so I have mild cramps for a minute or so
-stretching feelings and tiny shooting mild pains in different areas of my uterus
-sore boobs
-digestive issues. Prunes are my staple desert at the moment
-tiredness- after lunch the kids are getting used to the majority of my time being spent on the couch. Luckily they love being read to and will paint with block water colours for as many colouring pages as ill let them. I have a big thick Christmas colouring book which is getting quite the work out this year, i'm sure the parents are getting sick of receiving mass quantities of pictures each day!
For a few days after getting the hcg tests I was feeling really reassured and positive that all was going well but it didn't take long before I started having doubts and worrying that we would get to the ultrasound and have no heartbeat or I would start bleeding and loose the baby. It's a scary time being so early because unfortunately having waited almost 6 years years for this pregnancy still doesn't take away the risk of miscarriage. For my age group statistics say 1 in 7 pregnancies are lost before seeing a heart beat, thankfully the likelihood drops heaps after that. 12 more days until our ultrasound. Thankfully the days are going quickly, but not quickly enough. I'm really worried but reminding myself that the odds are better than they ever have been before. 1 in 7 means that 6 babies survive. Fingers crossed we're one of the lucky ones this time. I started worrying that my pregnancy symptoms were going away. When I stopped and took notice it was all still there except for waking at night. I even stopped with the prunes for a few days, just to check. Um yes, definitely still necessary. I was uncomfortable for a day because of it but it was worth it for the reassurance.
Tuesday, December 2, 2014
4 weeks 5 days pregnant
We got great blood test results yesterday, hcg 451, progesterone 180. (last 2 cycles my hcg was 9 and 20) I'm still in complete shock that i'm actually pregnant!
When my doctor went on to start discussing growth ultrasounds and booking to start seeing an obstetrician it was the wierdest feeling in the world. Although I knew that came next it was just so wierd, the thought of me- the one always wishing to be pregnant but never actually getting pregnant- going to a pregnancy doctor, I felt like it was in a dream and to be quite honest I feel quite unprepared. I got off the phone and thought, do I see a gp first? or is that just if you need to confirm pregnancy before seeing one? do I see a midwife instead? I feel kind of silly to after all this time of research and googling about baby related things to feel rather clueless as to what I do now that i'm actually pregnant ha but It will be fine i'll make some phone calls and figure it out. I actually recently started looking after the baby of a local midwife. She's really nice and i'd love to have her but I think i'd rather go to someone I don't know for a little bit in the beginning at least until we have a first scan and make sure baby is ok. And her baby's only been in day care 2 weeks so it would probably be nice if I don't have to spring on her that i'm pregnant just yet!
I can hardly believe this is actually happening, that I have a tiny poppy seed sized baby inside me. I'm of course scared that it's so early and a lot of babies don't make it but even if the worst were to happen this would still feel like a huge monumental step in the right direction. I feel like it would be quite likely that we would get pregnant easily now that we have discovered that the steroid prednisilone works for me. Either that or I just got lucky with the right embryo this time but either way, this is farther than I've ever come before and no matter the outcome it will still feel like a huge leap towards our goal, even if we had to start trying again we would be trying with the knowledge that I can get pregnant with a very promising hcg that indicates a lasting pregnancy which is so much better that trying but not knowing if I ever could. This is massive. I cant believe that I will never again have to wonder if my body is capable of getting propperly pregnant. I can't believe that we are so close to our dream, that it's growing in my belly right now. This dream that I dreamt for so long is right here with me after all these years. I had accepted that I quite possibly wouldn't be pregnant in 2014 like I had hoped, I was planning for another year of ivf, the new tests that we would be doing if this cycle didn't work but instead I get to plan for a baby. Our baby. Instead I get to go into target and choose out tiny clothes for a baby that finally exists. Long sleeves for 0-3 month size, short sleeves for 3-6 months, a few 0000 size because Benny is sure that we will have a prem baby (ivf babies are more likely to be prem plus he, his sister, niece and nephew all came early so he's quite possibly right) This is crazy, a dream, something that has felt out of reach for so long, yet here it is. I get to soak it in and start new dreams knowing that a little baby will most likely be part of them come the 9th of august next year
When my doctor went on to start discussing growth ultrasounds and booking to start seeing an obstetrician it was the wierdest feeling in the world. Although I knew that came next it was just so wierd, the thought of me- the one always wishing to be pregnant but never actually getting pregnant- going to a pregnancy doctor, I felt like it was in a dream and to be quite honest I feel quite unprepared. I got off the phone and thought, do I see a gp first? or is that just if you need to confirm pregnancy before seeing one? do I see a midwife instead? I feel kind of silly to after all this time of research and googling about baby related things to feel rather clueless as to what I do now that i'm actually pregnant ha but It will be fine i'll make some phone calls and figure it out. I actually recently started looking after the baby of a local midwife. She's really nice and i'd love to have her but I think i'd rather go to someone I don't know for a little bit in the beginning at least until we have a first scan and make sure baby is ok. And her baby's only been in day care 2 weeks so it would probably be nice if I don't have to spring on her that i'm pregnant just yet!
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